Thread:Nerdfightergirl/@comment-31292614-20180203223506/@comment-31292614-20180204021333

I'm completely sorry about all of this. I do not want any forgiveness. I know that I have been trouble for you guys since the start. When I began editing, I dived in, not reading any policies or anything. I know that I was a pain. It hurts that I am this much of a nusiance to you guys. That isn't me pitying myself. That may as well be the truth. I have been rude to you. I initially didn't have any respect for you. I played dumb. I have drained every last bit of joy that brings you here. I bring you stress. You both have given me warnings that I completely ignored or that I disregarded, because I thought that they meant nothing and that you two had no brains in your heads. This is all completely true. You are not in any wrong here. I am.

For quite some time, I was rooting to become an admin around here. I then began to realize how this wiki would crumble to the ground without you and Tooniee. I don't want to be an admin anymore. I just want to be a plain old editor.

And just so you know, I don't want to "swoop in", I don't want all the glory. You two brought this wiki from bottom to top. You guys work miracles together. You guys deserve every ounce of glory this wiki gains. Your dedication and Tooniee's shows how you guys are great people, with a deep commitment to doing things that you love and spreading the joy of Shondland. It takes lots of patience, and commitment to bring a wiki to thriving success.

I seriously do hope that at least some of my edits here have been helpful. I know lots of them have been meaningless, but I hope some of them have brought value to this wiki. I've added lots of content from Notes From The Nurses' Station, espically Debbie's page. I recently added content on Jo's page relating to Paul finding her.

From here on out, I will completely change. I will look through all my messages and scan the warnings you gave me, and I will apply them to my editing. I won't make as much edits anymore. If I see something that isn't on the wiki already, (e.g. aliases and such), I'll add it. This wiki belongs to you guys, not me.

I do hope for your trust. That won't happen immediately because of my history, but I hope that someday, I will gain it.