|“||I believe in heaven. I also believe in hell. I’ve never seen either, but I believe they exist. They have to exist because without a heaven, without a hell, we’re all just headed for limbo. Heaven, hell, limbo, no one really knows where we’re going or what’s waiting for us when we get there. But the one thing we can say for sure, with absolute certainty, that’s there are moments that take us to another place, moments of heaven on earth. And maybe for now, that’s all we need to know.||”|
Short Summary[edit | edit source]
Meredith and Miranda each cross a line, William Dunn regrets his decision and Izzie finally confronts what Denny's appearance means.
Full Summary[edit | edit source]
Izzie is brushing her teeth before going to bed. She sees Denny in the mirror, but ignores him and leaves the bathroom.
William's still banging his head on the frame of the bed. His bandage is getting bloody.
Meredith ignores the beeping monitor at the nurses' station.
In the kitchen, Denny watches Izzie practice stitches on a tomato.
Blood leaks from under William's bandage. He stops banging his head.
Sadie asks Meredith if she's coming to William's room. Meredith says the nurses will come get them if it's bad. Nurse Tyler comes over and informs them he's seizing. Meredith tells Sadie to go find something else to do.
In his room, William is seizing.
Izzie can't sleep as Denny's still with her. She wonders why he's still here. He says he's there for her, but she says they broke up. He has to go. She turns off the light and tries to fall asleep.
Melinda is with her son and Bailey. Alex called UNOS and Jackson is on top of the list. Bailey assures Melinda they're doing everything they can. Bailey gets paged.
Bailey enters William's room, where Meredith has changed his bandage. She gave William lorazepam for the seizure. She has refused to page Shepherd as William doesn't want her to. Meredith says William's a match for Jackson. Bailey wants to get Shepherd in for his bleed, but Meredith stresses he's gonna die anyway. William presumes the boy wants to live, and he has organs for the boy. He's ready to die.
Lexie and Mark enter an on-call room.
Outside the room, Meredith knows it's wrong on so many levels, but there's nothing in any book on how to deal with this situation. Bailey knows what to do: what's best for her patient. She suggests Meredith do the same to keep William alive. They're doctors, not executioners.
Steve, Ryan, and Dani are outside the on-call room where Lexie and Mark are obviously not sleeping. Suddenly, Mark screams. The interns run off.
Mark is screaming in pain. Lexie says it's bent in the middle. She thinks she broke his penis. Mark yells to get Torres.
Owen's asleep in Cristina's bed as she leaves the room.
Bailey tells Alex and Izzie they have to care for Jackson all day. His brain's going to swell and they can't stop that, but they have to slow it down. Denny tells Izzie she doesn't have time for anyone else. Richard comes over and asks how many hours they have. She says 16 hours, tops. Arizona says there's a liver dialysis machine downstairs for a clinical trial that may buy Jackson more time. Bailey tells Alex to go get the machine. Bailey wants off this case. She doesn't want to be there to see when Jackson dies. Arizona asks when she slept for the last time. Bailey assures her she's fine.
Derek kisses Meredith in a conference room. He's happy to see her. She's been here all night. He asks about William. Meredith says he'll be gone soon. Derek happily tells her his mother liked her. Bailey sees Derek leaving the room, smiling. She looks at Meredith when she comes out, too.
Lexie finally finds Torres. She paged her 911 for Sloan, who's badly injured for any man. He may have broken a bone. She broke his bone. Callie thinks she's kidding, but soon realizes it's serious.
Owen finds Cristina in a supply closet. He wants to apologize for last night. Normally, if he's showering with a woman, he does it without clothes, and if he ends up in her bed, he doesn't pass out. She says it's okay, but it's not. She doesn't think he has to talk about it.
William says it's getting harder to breathe. Meredith says he can stop at any time. She asks if he wants her to page Dr. Shepherd. William knows he's her boyfriend. The man has very good taste, he says. Right now, William can only think about lemons. When his grandfather was dying, he said he smelled lemons. That was all he could talk about. He keeps waiting to smell them, but he doesn't. His grandfather was a liar, so maybe that's why. He's sure he doesn't want her to page Shepherd.
Richard asks George to talk to the nurses to find out if any patient is O+ or brain dead. Then he has to cross-match those folks for Jackson. He has to be gentle, though. George understands.
Derek shows Cristina the ring, which was his mother's. Derek wants to know if Meredith's gonna like the ring or if he should have the setting replaced with something more modern. Cristina says it's not her job. He asks her to stop the fight because when he proposes, Meredith's gonna need someone to freak out to. Cristina says he should ask someone else.
Izzie asks Melinda if she's had time to eat because she needs her strength. She says she'll stay with Jackson. Melinda leaves and Izzie sees Denny again. Denny asks her if she believes in heaven. Izzie guesses so. Denny thought maybe this was heaven, getting to be with her. Now, he's not so sure. Maybe it's hell. He's here for her. She knows that by now. She chose Alex and she's sorry about that. Denny asks if it doesn't tell her anything that he's still here despite that. Denny says she can't pick Alex as he's here for her. He wants her to be happy, and he'd leave if he could. He doesn't want to stay here when she wants another man. He can't go because she won't listen to him. He's here for her. She asks what it means. He tells her to figure it out.
At a nurses station, Meredith wants to ask Cristina something but decides against it. Cristina asks if she monitored the serial killer last night. Meredith says she's got it covered. Cristina leaves to go check on William.
She examines him and wants to page Shepherd. Meredith says that if they let William die here, they can give his organs to Jackson. Derek won't allow it, so she didn't page him. She knows Cristina thinks this is wrong, but she asks Cristina to let her do this. William asks them to page him. He doesn't want to die. Cristina asks to have Shepherd paged.
Arizona is guiding Izzie as she's placing a catheter. Denny, meanwhile, keeps talking about the Grand Canyon and the Great Wall of China. His point is he has other things he wants to do, but she won't listen to him. Izzie is distracted and doesn't hear Arizona's words. "Would you just tell me already!" she yells to Denny. Arizona tells her to take a break.
The interns are gossiping about Mark's broken penis. Lexie is embarrassed. Sadie asks her if it was Torres. Lexie says it's nobody's business. If she did know it, Lexie wouldn't tell her.
Derek wants William in the OR in 20 minutes. He turns to Meredith and says she should have paged him or told him the truth. Meredith says she followed William's wishes. Derek says William's been preying on her since he got here. Meredith insists she made a decision as his doctor. Derek says it was the wrong one. She has to scrub in and watch him try to undo what she did.
Alex tells Arizona his ICP won't come down. Melinda tells her son it's not time. He has to stay here with her.
Bailey's walking down a hallway and sees they're taking William to surgery.
Callie has called in Owen, who confirms Mark has a penile fracture. Owen's done operations like this before. They have to get in now, or Mark risks permanent damage. Lexie comes in, but Mark says he doesn't want her to see him like this. He says please. She leaves.
Richard asks George what he's got. George says the guy is not a donor and that they're about to unplug him.
Bailey gathers herself and then enters Derek's OR. She says she needs Derek to stop operating. This man is trying to kill himself and she needs Derek to let him.
Derek tells Bailey she has to leave. Bailey says in 5 days, William will die and his organs will be buried with him. That's a crime against life. It's only 5 days and William doesn't want them anyway. Derek reminds her of her oath. She knows, but right now, that oath makes no sense. She asks Derek to stop. Derek says that if he stops, it's the same as sticking his scalpel into the man's brain. He asks if that's what she wants. She says yes.
Richard is talking to a patient's wife. He says he wants her husband's organs. Kelly tells him to leave. Her husband was healthy two days ago and he put his head through a windshield. She has to unplug him. He's the person who's supposed to hold her hand when things go bad, but he gets to go to heaven. She can't take it anymore, so she asks Richard to go. No more cutting into her husband.
Izzie walks back into Jackson's room. She's been out for a while. Alex asks if it was about Denny. She says she doesn't know. Alex says even Bailey can't stay and watch, and Izzie's talking to a dead guy. She has to be a doctor here to help save Jackson. Jackson is deteriorating. Izzie goes to check with UNOS again. Arizona hopes that Bailey's having better luck, whatever she's doing.
Cristina asks if she should put in a subdural drain as William's bleeding through his craniectomy. Derek says that's Bailey's call. She says no. Derek asks Bailey if he's a surgeon or an executioner. Everybody's looking at her. She decides he's a surgeon. She leaves the room.
Richard tells Kelly her husband can't take his liver with him to heaven, or his bowels, or his kidneys. These organs are good because he was healthy. He knows it's not what she wants to be thinking about.
Steve, Pierce, Dani, and Ryan are wondering who broke Mark's penis as they watch Callie and Owen repair it. They can't even imagine the muscle it takes to break a penis. Lexie yells to shut up about it. Ryan concludes she knows something. They suspect it's Lexie, but Sadie saves her and says it was her. She does this twist thing, but apparently she took it too far. She smiles at Lexie.
Izzie talks to Denny in an X-ray viewing room. She can feel him and smell him. She's thinking he's maybe not dead. Maybe his death was her crazy part. He must still be alive. He says that's not it. She asks if she's a ghost or a dream. He tells her to think like a scientist. Izzie says scientists believe what they can feel and see. She can slap and kiss him. That's a fact. He asks her what's happening. She says she's scared. They hug.
Bailey gathers herself before entering Jackson's room. In there, Arizona and Alex tilt the bed in an attempt to get his ICP down. Bailey tells Melinda to step back. Izzie takes her outside the room.
Derek and Cristina have finished stopping the bleeds. Meredith says it's a waste. Derek says saving a life is never a waste.
Melinda says Jackson's just a little boy. He's never even learned to ride a bike. Izzie says medical miracles happen every day. Melinda says she has to be with her son, as he's never been anywhere without her. Izzie says she's here for her son, even though she's not with him. She then remembers Denny telling her he's here for her. As Izzie realizes what it means, Alex comes to take Melinda back inside.
Inside Jackson's room, Bailey says it's time to hold Jackson and help him go. The doctors make room as Melinda says goodbye. Melinda tells her son he can go. It's okay. Mommy won't be mad. Richard rushes in and says they have organs. Jackson starts crashing. Bailey starts CPR.
Richard removes Kelly's husband's intestines. Alex takes them to Jackson.
In the waiting room, George has Kelly sign the consent forms as Melinda paces and cries.
Arizona and Bailey check for black spots. It looks clean. Jackson codes. They pack his abdomen and ask for a crash cart.
Izzie runs out into the ambulance bay as she gasps for air. Heaven or hell, she says. Denny's here for her. Izzie gets it. Denny says he loved her so much that when he got to come back, he thought she was his heaven. But maybe, he's her hell. Izzie says she's sick. Instead of telling her to save her life, he kept quiet. She yells she hates him. Denny says he didn't know there was a chance. Medical miracles happen, she said so herself. Izzie tells Denny to leave. Denny says he can go now that she knows, but it's her choice. If he goes, he doesn't know if he can come back. She says she chooses heaven. She chooses life. She tells Denny to go. Denny really hopes this is heaven. She asks what he's waiting for. He kisses her one last time and disappears.
William wakes up after surgery. Meredith is checking up on him. William says he was playing her. Derek was right. He wanted to destroy her career. He wanted to be here to see the fall-out. Meredith says he was scared, she would've been too. William says it'd be good to have a friendly face in the crowd when they kill him.
Owen finds Cristina and says he planned the whole evening, a real date. He was gonna take her to the west point lighthouse, and they were gonna watch the northern lights together. He'd like another chance. She says he's got some big problems. He admits he does. He asks if she'll go out with him anyway. She says yes.
Lexie visits Mark in his room. She refuses to go away. It's Lexie, not Little Grey. She's sorry she broke him and he's humiliated, but she's not going anywhere. She's got a friend who's guarding the door and since no one's gonna come in, she's gonna climb into bed with him and strokes his hair, because that's what she likes to have done for her when she's hurt. She then does so.
Outside the room, Sadie is standing guard and smiling.
Bailey and Richard are watching Jackson and Melinda, who are sleeping. It's unsure if Jackson will wake up as he might have brain damage. Bailey says she crossed a line today. Richard says he did, too. Bailey starts crying and Richard comforts her.
Izzie's still in the ambulance bay, lost in her thoughts.
William's led to the execution table. He looks at the audience and sees Meredith sitting in the back. He smiles and is then strapped to the table. Now, he can smell lemons. He watches Meredith as the buzzer goes off and the injections start. William's eyes close.
Jackson's eyes open. He asks for water. Melinda kisses him on his forehead. Arizona and Bailey are relieved.
Meredith leaves the facility. Derek's waiting for her outside, leaning against the car. She's crying. She knows he doesn't understand her. She doesn't even understand herself. She wanted to show him compassion. That's why she went. It was horrible. Derek hugs her and says it's okay.
Cristina opens the door. Derek says Meredith's in the car and she won't stop crying. She asks if he proposed. He explains she went to William's execution.
Outside, Cristina gets in the car as Derek sits down on a bench and watches them talk.
Cast[edit | edit source]
Main Cast[edit | edit source]
- Ellen Pompeo as Dr. Meredith Grey
- Sandra Oh as Dr. Cristina Yang
- Katherine Heigl as Dr. Izzie Stevens
- Justin Chambers as Dr. Alex Karev
- T.R. Knight as Dr. George O'Malley
- Chandra Wilson as Dr. Miranda Bailey
- James Pickens, Jr. as Dr. Richard Webber
- Sara Ramírez as Dr. Callie Torres
- Eric Dane as Dr. Mark Sloan
- Chyler Leigh as Dr. Lexie Grey
- Patrick Dempsey as Dr. Derek Shepherd
Special Guest Star[edit | edit source]
Guest Stars[edit | edit source]
- Kevin McKidd as Dr. Owen Hunt
- Eric Stoltz as William Dunn
- Jessica Capshaw as Dr. Arizona Robbins
- Samantha Mathis as Melinda Prescott
- Amy Sloan as Kelly
- Brandon Scott as Dr. Ryan Spalding
- Melissa George as Dr. Sadie Harris
Co-Starring[edit | edit source]
- Aaron Refvem as Jackson
- Moe Irvin as Nurse
- Mark Saul as Intern Steve
- Molly Kidder as Intern Megan
- Candice Afia as Intern Laura
- Amrapali Ambegaokar as Intern Dani
- Tymberlee Chanel as Intern Claire
- Gloria Garayua as Intern Graciella
- Joseph Williamson as Intern Pierce
- Winston Story as Intern Leo
Medical Notes[edit | edit source]
William rammed his head into his hospital bed in order to make it bleed so he could become brain dead. He started seizing, so Meredith gave him lorazepam. William was conscious afterward. After a while, he said it was getting harder to breathe. Meredith offered to page Derek, but he declined. Then he later told Cristina that he didn't want to die, so she paged Derek, who rushed William into surgery. In surgery, Bailey came to ask Derek to allow William to die so that Jackson Prescott could get his organs. However, she recanted and Derek finished fixing William's brain. He was stable after his surgery and was able to be discharged back to death row, where he was then executed.
- Short gut syndrome
- Liver dialysis
- Liver transplant
- Intestine transplant
Jackson was still in the hospital waiting for a liver and intestine transplant. His ammonia levels were rising despite the shunt. They brought a liver dialysis machine from where GI was using it for a clinical trial to give him a little extra time. He continued to decline despite everything they were doing. They eventually believed he was going to die, so they told his mother to hold him to help him go. Just as she did that, Richard came in and said they had organs for him. They took him into surgery where they transplanted his new organs. He coded during the transplant, but was stabled afterward and later woke up asking for water.
- Penile fracture
Mark broke his penis while having sex with Lexie. Owen operated to fix it.
Matthew[edit | edit source]
- Brain death
- Organ harvest
Matthew was pronounced brain dead after being in a car accident. After being asked, his wife agreed to donate his organs to Jackson Prescott.
Music[edit | edit source]
|"Drifting Further Away"||Powderfinger||
Notes and Trivia[edit | edit source]
- This episode's title originated from the song Stairway to Heaven, originally sung by Led Zeppelin.
- This episode scored 14.25 million viewers.
Gallery[edit | edit source]
Episode Stills[edit | edit source]
Quotes[edit | edit source]
- Izzie: Heaven or hell?
- Denny: Yes.
- Izzie: You're here for me.
- Denny: Yes.
- Izzie: No. You're not here for me. You're here FOR me. You're here for me.
- Denny: I loved you so much. I loved you so much that when I got to come back for you, I thought... you were my heaven. But maybe... maybe I'm your hell.
- Izzie: I'm sick. I'm sick, aren't I? And instead of telling me... instead of telling me to save my life - you son of a bitch! You selfish son of a bitch. I hate you! I hate you!
- Denny: I didn't know that there was a chance. Miracles happen. Medical miracles happen every day. You said it! You said that!
- Izzie: Leave! Leave.
- Denny: I can go now... because you know. But it's your choice. You get to choose. But, Iz, If I go... I don't know... I don't know if I can come back. If I go...
- Izzie: In the choice between heaven and hell, I choose heaven. I choose life. Go. Get out of here! Go out get of here! Go.
- Denny: I really hope this is heaven.
- Izzie: Go. What are you waiting for?
- Denny: This.
- (Denny kisses Izzie.)
- Mark: Little Grey.
- Lexie: It's not Little Grey. It's Lexie. And I'm sorry that I broke... that I hurt you. And I'm sorry that you're humiliated. But I'm not going anywhere. I've got a friend who is guarding the door. A good friend. And since no-one is going to be coming in, I'm now going to climb into bed with you and stroke your hair. Because that's what I like to have done for me, when I'm hurt.
- Cristina: You've got some problems. You've got some big problems.
- Owen: Yeah. Yeah, I do. Will, you go out with me anyway?
- Cristina: Yes.
- Owen: I planned the whole evening, last night. A real date. It was a clear night, one of the five Seattle gets all year. I was going to take you to the West Point Lighthouse and we were going to watch the Northern Lights together. I'd like another chance. I want you to give me another chance.
- Derek: It's your call, Dr. Bailey. It's up to you. Am I an executioner? Or am I a surgeon?
- Miranda: Karev, go and get the machine.
- Alex: What if it's already hooked up to somebody?
- Arizona: If that somebody has more than 16 hours to live, then we'll unhook him.
- Meredith: I know you don't understand me. I don't understand me. I wanted to show him compassion. That's why I went. That's the reason. And it was horrible... it was horrible.
- Derek: It's okay.
See Also[edit | edit source]
A complete overview of this episode's crew can be found here.
The Grey Matter blog post on this episode can be found here.
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|#01||"Dream a Little Dream of Me, Part 1"||#09||"In the Midnight Hour"||#17||"I Will Follow You Into the Dark"|
|#02||"Dream a Little Dream of Me, Part 2"||#10||"All By Myself"||#18||"Stand By Me"|
|#03||"Here Comes the Flood"||#11||"Wish You Were Here"||#19||"Elevator Love Letter"|
|#04||"Brave New World"||#12||"Sympathy for the Devil"||#20||"Sweet Surrender"|
|#05||"There's No 'I' in Team"||#13||"Stairway to Heaven"||#21||"No Good at Saying Sorry (One More Chance)"|
|#06||"Life During Wartime"||#14||"Beat Your Heart Out"||#22||"What a Difference a Day Makes"|
|#07||"Rise Up"||#15||"Before and After"||#23||"Here's to Future Days"|
|#08||"These Ties That Bind"||#16||"An Honest Mistake"||#24||"Now or Never"|
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